We Found Everything

     She came to me that night. I told her that we needed to escape but that I hadn’t expected her to come as quickly as she had. She didn’t think I was crazy or know that I was right but she trusted me and that was enough. I told her that I thought they were watching and that I knew they were listening. We had to get to it as soon as possible. I took her by the hand and we hurried to where we were going.

     There weren’t others around. They could’ve been watching from anywhere; it wasn’t the time to worry. I hurried her along as fast as she could go without taking off her heels. If I took us there the right way then it wouldn’t be that far from where we were. We got there sooner than I’d expected. I told her to hold on and went up to it and pulled away the veil. It wasn’t what I had expected. While concentrating on what I thought was worth memorizing I signaled for her to come closer without looking her way. She pulled close to me. I clasped her torso with my palms to make her feel more secure. She knew that I could feel the trace of sweat that had soaked through her dress from her lower back. The pretense didn’t matter anymore. She was mine and she knew that I knew it and what I was doing.

     I’d found exactly what I told her I would. Now that it was done we only had to worry about staying away from them. We made our escape in each other’s arms. They might’ve seen us and known what we’d discovered, yet they never caught us or stopped us from continuing our search. We found everything.

It’s all in the action, not in the adjectives.

I went back to The Sun Also Rises today. I’d forgotten what an easy and enjoyable read it is. I feel I’m being disingenuous in saying that I’d forgotten it because I don’t think I realized it the first place. It’s only been a couple of years since I first read the novel, so perhaps I was being a lazy reader. I can’t remember the last time I read something so straight forward that was also considered great literature. And therein lies the problem, or more specially, my problem; I called it literature. Approaching any written word as great literature sets an intellectual trap loaded with a bait too irresistible for an English major such as myself. I want to know what makes it great. Consequently, I lose sight of what actually makes great literature great; it tells a good story that readers can relate to.

Speaking of relateability, I have a few words on the first chapter. Hemingway begins by exploring the backstory of Robert Cohn. He writes about Cohn being unaware that his Jewish heritage carries with it some unfortunate baggage. This is the result of being sheltered in his younger years, and it isn’t until he arrives at Princeton that he comes to the understanding that some people are going to treat him like shit simply because he’s Jewish.

Now I can’t relate to this because I’m Jewish, I’m not, but because I had a similar experience in regards to understanding anti-Semitism and becoming more aware of the bigoted world around me. In my small Texas hometown there weren’t a lot of Jews, and if there were I still don’t know where they are because I never met any of them. I realized that being a Jew was something different, and something that could inspire scorn and persecution, not from all the Old Testament reading in Sunday school or from all the Holocaust literature in middle school, but from South Park. I don’t know about y’all, but I think someone must’ve designated seventh grade English as “Holocaust Studies” because I don’t remember reading anything else. For whatever reason, those four cursing little boys got it through to me that Jews suffer a great deal of persecution by no fault of their own and that sucks. Before then I had been completely oblivious to the notion.

Anyways, I realized about a third of the way through writing this that I didn’t have much profound to say on the subject. I finished it anyways. Maybe it will inspire you to go back and read the first chapter of The Sun Also Rises, because I think you would have a hard time finding a better example of sound characterization. It’s all in the action, not in the adjectives.

 

Why have you chosen me?

Why have you chosen me? I suppose that I asked for it. There’s no doubt that Grace will inevitably read this and count it as further proof that I’m insane but I supposed that you have decided that is my plight and I guess I can live with that but it all seems so crazy. There’s no way something so strange could be coincidence. You know this. It has gone beyond the point of reason. It never ceases, but the more specific I am the more insane I sound. I’m a fool to even write this. Anyone I explained this to would call it schizophrenia.

For Posterity

For Posterity

 

You missed what makes the best of me,

It’s probably my fault,

That’s what I always say and see,

So now I think I’ll not,

Pass off all the blame upon,

The vanity of self,

That color’s all I’m thinking on,

It’s better for my health.

 

You think that I am lost within,

Impossible connections,

A conspiracist I’ve never been,

Your aesthetics are unleavened,

I see you pinching nostrils tight,

You’ve smelled worse scents than I,

Pretense is always worth a fight,

More evil than a lie./p>

 

I’m really rather good at this,

You likely haven’t seen,

Because I threw it to the fish,

Before your eyes had gleaned,

Thoughts that are first plucked upon,

Illumined yellow pad,

Then posted for all babble-on,

Until it drives me mad.

 

Cut from idle checkered past,

They always seems to rhyme,

I parse and paste them to the mast,

In ever measured mind,

By concentrating all the faults,

In ceaseless thinking hours,

After further second thoughts,

At least the faults were ours.

“Googling You” or “Add Sense”

“Googling You” or “Add Sense”

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In all the hours of watching all our screens,

We never thought the screens were watching us,

Now that we can see our scenes are seen,

We’re told that all this watching is a plus,

What harm is done in aggregating data,

It brings us things with ever lesser cents,

So many grains of sands and what their made of,

Glass is what it makes up, just add sense,

World’s information on demand,

Any lonely soul can have a go,

Ego’s shattered out of hand,

Otherwise they’d never know.

                Well and good what I wrote about,

                Unless you see the thing that I left out.